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heyaz ppl... been baq frm a extremely looong week... tho itZ still the same number of hours.. haha... shack manz... did some silly navigation exercise ard tekong... as u guyz would noe... n itz crap... but of course i wun go into dat.. hehe... even if u dun mind me whining abt it i oso dun wanna tink abt it anymore.. hehe..

well anyway i guess i can talk a little abt wat i felt in the silly exercise.. i guess dat would be slightly more substantial... well firstly i nv felt so shack b4 in my entire life... call me unfit or wateva... but trekking at least merely 1km plus with easily more than 20kg of useless stuff felt like an evil japanese torture.. n datz for getting to one checkpoint onli... kinda demoralising to tink dat juz WALKING the distance of 4 rounds around the sports stadium track could take the life out of u....

secondly... i tink it doesn't pay to give up on urself so easily even when u tink things r hopeless.... almost couldn't book out tonite juz bcoz i fell out nt even halfway thru the silly day topo training bcoz i tink me body couldn't get used to the weight of the useless stuff as well as the heat of the Sun... reason valid enuff but i guess in the eyes of the world it means dat i'm nt performing n i'm juz lousy n shld be dealt with accordingly.... the sad realities of life...

continuing frm the second point, on a more personal note, i guess the feeling of accomplishment isn't there n it sux when ppl who went thru it all juz come up to u n tell u straight in ur face dat u suck n u shld wake up ur idea or get hell frm me.... n u're nt respected at all... regarded as second grade frm the rest who put up... well i guess datz the way the world thinks... coz i wun tink like dat... i guess i'm more forgiving or as most ppl wanna put it, soft, than the majority of the global populous....

well... feeling extremely tired now.. didn't haf much gd sleep during the week... wun haf more in the week to come oso.. haha.. can't tink of wat to write anymore... heh.. well.. hope to hear more frm u guyz.... thx a lot for the contributions.... so til the nxt entry... ciaoz.. ^^